TPA 84

Tomorrow I meet up with my folks to talk about the money I'll be receiving from disability. It still doesn't feel real, I know that my life won't change that much but now I'll have some breathing room incase I lose my job or do something stupid. A chunk of that money will be going toward a car and the rest will be going towards expenses like food and bills. In time, I should get enough money to get the smaller things that I want like a game console here and there. It's strange but part of me is finally maturing enough to know how to spend money. No, that's not true. I bought a game on a whim yesterday and I don't regret it. I should but I don't want to be full of regrets. Instead I'll just play it and see what comes up from my experience. It's called "Dying Light: The Beast." It's a third game in the Dying Light series in where you have to hunt during the day and hide during the night. I enjoyed the second game, I spent hours on it looking for loot and building my stats. The problem with the current one, just like the second game, is that the story feels more like an excuse rather than a motivation. You escape from a lab after being experimented on for over a decade and swear revenge. It's a dumb story but it keeps the player moving. The real pull is the gameplay. The ability to climb almost anywhere in an urban jungle is the focus. I've only been playing for an hour and I'm hooked. I should get my money's worth out of this. I have a bunch of credits from buying previous games which brought down the price from fifty to thirty bucks. A nice deal. I'm told this game is shorter than the others but I spent most of my time in the second game doing side quests and playing around in the world rather than the main story. I've noticed that I enjoy playing multiplayer games by myself. There's this quiet that comes over you when you're alone that draws me into the world. No one to talk to or blab random crap to you. It's just you and the game. 

I got to talk to my diet coach today. She was nice but didn't really provide any help. I feel like I need to use some of the methods they suggested to curb my eating habbits. They called it "Eating the rainbow." I'm not sure what that means but she described it as eating a variety of things on the menu to fill up rather than focus on one color. For me that would be meat and carbohydrates. So, I need more greens and fruits put in my diet which I think I can do. And I need to start logging in my food intake. Not logging it won't get rid of the food I eat. It's just that it feels like a confessional of my diet. I'm not going to look back at these logs but my fear is that someone will and see what a pig I am. I'm prediabetic and I want to lose weight before I have to take drastic measures.

I don't know why but I keep running into these mangas with interesting ideas but overblown with sexual content. Not that I'm complaining, I'm a straight male who likes some ecchi scenes but when they become the focus of the story, that's when I lose interest. It's called Tentacle Hole and it has similar themes to Gleipnir in terms of sex. It's an isekai manga where the protagonist and his childhood friend/love interest are taken to another world where society lives around a giant hole. Inside the hole are resources they haul up and plenty of monsters. There's this fetish in Japanese society called "tentacle porn" which is thought to have been based around an old painting of an octopus assulting a woman. Since then, Japanese artists have used tentacles to...invade...parts of women in a sexual nature. Our protagonist is killed and reborn as a tentacle monster who has the urge to assult women. He can only control it when his girl is around him which calms him down. And then we have to obligatory puns such as the slime that he ejaculates from his tentacles cause healing. I'll be honest, it's somewhat entertaining with the ridiculous ideas that go through this story. It's just that I wish these kinds of stories didn't depend on cliche crutches so often to make their story go forward. I was already invested in finding out what happend to the protagonist's body that made him a monster. And then the story rushes so fast without any pacing to skip over details about characters and forgoe their arcs. There's a villain who's introduced and killed within two chapters. How is that progress? What was this guy's purpose besides cannon fodder. It feels like the writer didn't think about the characters either. He suddenly cuts to one who's in a fight and only focuses on her (because she's hot) while the rest of the team is forgotten. I easily forgot that she was part of a team since she was the only one who took the stage in the chapters. To add to that, she's not the leader of the team, she's a rank below the leader who was briefly introduced and then cut off from the others. It makes you wonder who's important in the story. I find it hard to digest a story that doesn't have focus on a character or lets them build up a bit before moving on to the next one. And here I am, complaining about a story that is basically a step away from porn. How sad of me to focus on something so perverse and unfocused. Of course, I'll still read it. It fulfills some kind of need in me besides watching bimbos get attacked by tentacles. I also noticed that they say "tentacles" a lot in the story which kills the vibe. They should use other words like "arms" or "feelers" to switch it up. You use the same word over and over and it gets boring really quick. Your eyes start to notice it and I end up counting how many times they use a certain word, like tentacles.