Fading: a dark psalm

All that I want is temporary. Lust, fame, wealth. All these will pass and I know it. So why am I cursed to want them? Its a spiral of wanting and self loathing. I should want the eternal but I crave the here and now. My lack only gnaws on me like a starving man who hasn't eaten in weeks. How do I cry out to someone I can't hear? How do I discipline myself to put down the fading and focus on the future? I feel damned.

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