Stage Fright

I've always had this kind of stage fright despite wanting to be the center of atteniton. Maybe it's because I know I'll make a fool of myself. It's easier to write about stuff than do actual writing due to this fear. I can't even edit. It's like trying to carve a piece of meat after it's been ruined by the initial cut. It just doesn't work. Or it's like trying to cover up a mistake on a cake with more icing, it just makes it worse. That's what happening with my tooth story. This is hard. I'll give it one more shot today.

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