Three Pages Attempt 1

Reading The Artist's Way has enlightened me most days but that wasn't the case today. I felt tired today, I just wanted to stay in my bed all day. But I am doing something that the book recommended which was writing a few pages a day. Do I have to write longhand like the book suggests? My handwriting is terrible. No, that's not the reason. I just don't like doing it. I wonder if this will even help because I'm not writing three pages. I've written one page already so I'm giving myself a break while my pizza gets ready. I wrote about Charlie Kirk and a dream I had that I think I can turn into a story. The book said that this would be filled with despair so I guess I got that part right. And it also feels like rambling nonsense so that'll help too.

So let's talk about what is currently giving me an aching headache: Hollow Knight Silk Song. I bought the game for twenty bucks thinking that it would be a fun romp through the Hollow Knight series, and it is. It's just that the game feels like Super Mario Bros the Lost Worlds. It's a tougher game. Let me start from the beginning. If I go back about two weeks, that's when I was naive enough to think the game was just more Hollow Knight. Instead, it's a lot harder. I just spent half an hour trying to defeat this beast bug boss. I lost everything to it. When you die, you lose all the money you stored up. You have to recover it and if you fail to, its gone for good. I've lost so much money, at least a thousand beads (the currency) to missing a jump or getting hit by an enemy. I just went through the most hellish place in the game so far, a red ant mound. I had to fight these burrowing little creeps who threw stuff at me and took too much of my health off with each swing of their weapons. To heal, you have to use up this spool of thread but it only regenerates if you hit enemies with your sword. So I'm trying to counter attack and dodge these creatures while trying to get the boss so I can take another swing at him. It doesn't help that each enemy takes four, count them four, hits to kill. If only my blade was stronger. I swear, the original Hollow Knight didn't have this much of crap for me to deal with. I get hit so much that my character has to spend all the silk on healing rather than something cool like an attack. You can also spend the silk in special attacks which I can rarely use because the damage is so much that I need to heal. Did anyone test this game before they put it out? They already nerfed two of the bosses, one of which I just beat so I'm glad I waited long enough for the game to be fixed. In the meantime, I'll be playing other games to cool off. I still think it's an awesome game though. 

I recently got this game where I have to hunt animals and monsters to make food out of them. You know, if the sprites in this game didn't have these close-up pictures, they would actually be cute. In games that use sprites, the developers often have these close-up pictures of them so you know what they look like. I think it's because Concerned Ape who did Stardew Valley had the same thing. But the problem, for me, is that the characters looked better as sprites. I'll look over on the left of the screen and go "Oh, God! Is that what they really look like?" The first character I met as soon as I got off the train was an android who looked ugly up close. It's like that song goes "Look real close cause strobe lights lie." There is something good here, the game offers these mini games when you cook which are fun. You have to hit the right button at the right time to get a good enough score. This is where the bulk of the game development seems to have gone to, besides the pixel graphics. Maybe I'll have a better opinion of the game once I've played it some more after this writing. 

Moving on, back to Charlie Kirk. There's riots happening in the US and the UK from the Right who are trying to "protect free speech" or something like that. His influence has reached all the way to Korea and Australia. It's interesting because while this is happening, the Left seems to be shooting itself in the foot by posting online how happy they are that Kirk is dead. It's nice to know I'm not the only one who is bad with words. If I were younger, I would have likely said the same thing. The UK had over a hundred thousand people in their protests. I think people are upset not so much at how Kirk was shot but what his death represents. He became a martyr overnight but I'm sure his wife would have Kirk give all that up to see him again. It's just amazing to me how people can say such awful things about a person who was just debating others. And yes, a lot of what he said was inflammatory, probably on purpose. But the man had the right to say what he wanted when he wanted without fear. I don't support...much of what Kirk said but he didn't need a bullet in his throat. I know they caught the shooter; a lifetime of misery awaits that man. There have been people banned from Bluesky, the Twitter alternative, for posting their hatred towards Kirk. Again, I don't think this is due to what Kirk said but the freedom he represented. 

Have I've written enough? Ok, got another page to go. Every news organization I watch and every youtuber that has a hint of politics in them is going after the mainstream media and the reaction the Left has had towards Kirk's death. And while I know they try to paint the Left as evil, these posts that people are leaving, the ones that are costing them their jobs, are really not helping. 

What else happened? My phone keeps on restarting one of my search engines because I have over four thousand tabs opened on them. You know, I tried to clear some out but I have so much to go through that I can't organize them at all. I'd rather just let them accumilate and make new tabs to find the old stuff. Every once and a while I'll find something and say, "Hey, I remember that. Maybe I'll read it." Honestly, this isn't fun, it feels like exercise and not the fun kind where you get into the zone and meditate. Alot of them are mangas and comics I want to read. Like "Something is Killing the Children." I definately want to read that one. It helps give me structure to my own stories when I see someone else write. I want to get better at this but it takes so much to get better. Takes a long time and a lot of practice. And, I'm supposed to be doing this in the morning. And this is just the warm up. How am I supposed to write every day if this is just the warm up? Is this Stephen King's The Long Walk? Speaking of which, an actor I like who was in Alien: Romulus is in The Long Walk. I knew that kid had talent when I saw him play an android. Now I want to go see it. Also, Mark Hamil is playing the General, the villain of the movie/book. So that's somewhat interesting to see the guy who played the most famous protagonist play a villain. 

Almost there. Got a few more words and I can go play. How does Brandon Sanderson do this? He gets about four grand's worth of words out each day or he starts to feel antsy. I feel antsy too but only if I don't get a thousand words out. I guess he publishes everything he writes. And this blog I made, the one that no one reads, I made it to make some practice but this is like going from the hundred yard dash to the eight hundred. I did that once when I was in third grade. What a fool I was not knowing how long eight hundred yard dash is. You have to go around the track twice, TWICE. Sheesh what was wrong with me back then? Ah, I was just a kid, I didn't know any better. I could barely count to five. Ha. 

Anyway, that should be enough rambling. Tomorrow, I have to write even more stuff. Even more rambling. I think I'll talk about the manga I want to read, that ought to fill up a few pages right?