Dear John

Dear John, 

What should I say to you. It's cliche to say that there's so much so I'll say what I know right now. I wish you good health and many friends. I know that in my time that a new disease called Covid will hit and the world will change. You'll think to yourself "I never thought I would be in a modern-day plague." But you will. You won't catch it and it won't kill you but it will affect your world forever. I don't watch sports so don't bet on any teams. In fact, sports gambling will become huge. I know you like watching the early days of poker but it's nothing like that. There will be more people who are addicted to gambling than ever before so watch out for that. That's physical and mental health taken care of. There will be sick days and days you want to quit your job. You have to be careful here. I know it's hard for us to hold a job but please go easy on yourself. I wish you would take the time to make more friends. There's this app called Discord that lets you meet like-minded people who love to play games. Meet some of them and try to hold on to them because good friends are hard to find and harder to keep. In the future, it seems like everyone is autistic. 

What else? Speaking of games, don't break your bank account. I know you want to experience everything but you have to pick and choose your games. There are good experiences out there but just like most of the movies that come out are crap, most of the games you buy are mediocre. Don't waste your time on them. Focus on anything with Lovecraft in it. I know you love to do those research project. Start early, focus on learning what's the meaning behind all of Lovecraft's work. I'm working on a book right now that encompasses his stories and I think it'll be a banger. Or, going by Brandon Sanderson's life, it might not start off as great as you think. I don't know. I wish you would write more. Every day write a little because you have so much inside of you and so little time. So take some time to get off the games and go read a book or three. I wish that you had choosen writing as your degree. I know you got a history degree and I'm proud of that but I wanted the writing one because I hope that it is my future. I don't know what I want sometimes. The future is scary, John. You live in poverty and don't know how to pay your bills sometimes. You feast of garbage foods and you get fat. Fat enough to be pre-diabetic. So take care of yourself. I know exercise is boring and hard but if you practice, like writing, you'll get better. 

Don't be a jerk online. I spent yesterday going through my old tweets and deleting them. There's this movement called the "woke" movement that needs to be squashed. They'll tell you that gamers are scum and men are pigs. They'll insult you online while hiding behind a keyboard and some will be foolish enough to step out into the open and speak their idiotic minds. This phase of their movement will pass. I look down on them because you'll win John. They'll be silenced and you'll be the victor. At least, it will feel like that. You want to win but not kick dirt in their face. Make no mistake, they are wrong to say these kinds of things and you won't be alone in fighting back. But don't look back on and have to delete something that you regret. 

There's something else you should know. Pray a little each day. Pray that God would change the situation or change you. Pray that God gets inside of your head before you do. I pray that every day. I'll warn you, usually you'll be the one to change, not the situation. God seems more invested in you than what's going on. They'll be lots of bad things but remember that God can use them for good. I want you to watch out for people who try to steal from you. The world is an awful place and you need to protect yourself. I know you want a new job but don't fall for fake ones like checking other people's packages to see if they're damaged. That's not a real job, it's a fake one. Most jobs suck and will always suck but if you've got your phone you can listen to all kinds of music and podcasts that will keep you entertained for hours. Be tahnkful for what you have and try not to think about going to Heaven so much. Try to figure out how to get what you want right now, not in the future. 

I hope that you become a famous writer who can take care of himself and have a little extra money to take care of your folks and sister. And then a little more to give to your friends. I want you to be a shining example so that others know about your struggle and want to help others who are on the spectrum They'll be idiots who think your disability is caused by Tylenol or other kind of idiotic ideas. You'll have to put your foot down at some point and tell them they are idiots. You're other dream, making a game, it'll fail. I know you want to write for games but the industry is tough to get into. It's better if you write books because someone may decided that they want you to write for them. I hope that's how we get into this industry. It'll hurt, your dream. Seeing it die but you'll also be relieved because it was so stressful when you were working on it. But you'll also meet Mike, a great friend who'll be a spiritual uplift to you. You'll also meet Eric who's like a brother. He's spirit isn't as lifting so be careful around him. 

This came out less critical than I thought. Work on your writing John. It's the only thing that can get us out and get us the prestige we want.