TPA 26

I had an idea of what I wanted to write about today but I forgot to put it down. A pity, I thought it was a good idea at the time. I talked to my writing coach yesterday and she likes my Cain idea. The basic formula behind it is the idea of "killing someone won't bring them back." I'm sure you've heard that phrase before. It's this idea of how revenge won't bring back loved ones. And yet we have this urge inside of us to get justice in some kind of form. So what if there was a world with a spell or a technique where killing a murderer did bring them back? That's the crux of the story. It's strange becaue the world I imagined it in is very bleak and gray. So much so that I barely did any research. I just went into my imagination and pulled the first thing that came out. It's a desolate land that represents my protagonist's mindset. He's had everything taken from him and only has revenge. Which reminds me.

Im thinking about breaking down all the videos I have for the KIY stories. I just want to take notes as I watch these videos because half of them haven't been watched or only remain stuck in my mind. I created a playlist of highlights but that's not enough. I need to nail down what it is I want to do with KIY so maybe watching and noting these videos will help. Maybe it's just another delay but I like to categorize everything. Do I even have the energy to do all these breakdowns? I doubt it. It would be at least until the end of 2025 when I would be able to say that I'm done. And would I have really "written" anything besides notes? Probably not. But there's a lot I want to take from the videos I've collected. Sometimes I can only watch videos because the games behind them are too expensive. Take the Silent Hill series for example. A friend of mine recently bought the entire original series. Four games all for one thousand three hundred dollars. That's incredible. The Shadow Heart games is another series that has interested me but the games cost upwards of forty to seventy dollars. That's more reasonable but I don't have that kind of money. I would have to avoid fast food for a month to be able to afford that. Can I even do that?

I want this mix of Persona series and Cthulhu world. I wonder if I can combine the two. There's a bunch of other games that I want to reference too and themes I want to use in my story. There's so much that I don't think I can do it all in one swoop. How do writers pick what they want to do? That's why I think writing down this Cain story is so important. I can practice with a small story and get experience. 

Anyway, for the rest of my pages I think I'll break down some chapters from Gleipnir since it seems to be helping. Or maybe not.

I had chores to do at my folks place. I wanted money and wanted to help them out. I need it because I have a friend coming over in a few days and he likes to eat. I have to feed him something. Honestly all I do on my days off is sleep and eat. I don't even get much gaming in. Maybe I don't want to. I learned about this thing in the brain called anhedonia. It's where the brain can't feel pleasure anymore. I wonder if that's what's wrong with me.

I figured out an issue with my Cain story. You know that part about bringing people back to life with the death of another? Maybe I need an example. Maybe I should use the woman he meets on his trip. It's just a thought. I have to be careful to not put too much logic, it's just a story after all. But there has to be some way to keep out plot holes without driving myself crazy. 

After talking with my dad, I've had second thoughts about writing notes on all the videos. I forgot that I need to focus my story. My dad said that he had a teacher who told him that my dad could write twenty pages if he wanted but he was only going to read eight. That seems to be the case for my KIY series. Lets pick a few videos and sources and go from there. If I don't, I'll never write this story.