New Source VIA Character Institute

After talking with my therapist, I was told about this site that helps you to discover what you like about yourself. It's also good for developing story characters which is how I plan on using it. I think this might help me a bit if I take a look in the mirror. 

Results are in and since I have less than half an hour to get ready for work, I might as well list them here. I think I may have made myself seem a little shallow because I'm feeling down. I always feel down because I doubt myself or I don't like or know the real answer.

First was Spirituality. I suppose that's correct. I do believe in a higher purpose for myself or a destiny. I believe there is a meaning to life that shapes us. 

Kindness is my second one. I do like to help people and often think about them.

I do love learning. I think I try to learn something new every day. 

Curiosity is next but I don't know if that's true about me. I'm not always interested in something just for the sake of it. I try to see what I can do to benefit from it. What can this thing teach me?

Finally we have honesty. I doubt this one too. I don't know if I would consider myself honest. I eat food that isn't mine from work every now and then. I don't think that's honest and I don't think I care enough to stop myself. I don't know if I'm honest in this survey. There are things I don't like about myself if I was honest.

Next is humor. I like to laugh and make other laugh. 

Then there's fairness. I do believe in trying to treat everyone the same. I don't know if I always do that though. I'm having some bad thoughts about that. 

Then there's creativity which I wish was higher. Maybe I'm not the creative person I thought I was.

Judgement is something that I'm not sure about. Do I always look at things from both sides before making a decision?

Am I brave? I'm more of a go with the flow kind of thinking sometimes. 

Teamwork is lower because I many of my decisions are made about myself. I don't think I'm a team player. I don't know the balance between just contributing or leading. I feel like I'm either at the bottom or the top of the ladder. 

Love? I guess I value being with others but I'm not feeling it right now.

Humility is in the middle somewhere. I think I'm too humble. Maybe I'm not in the best mindset right now to do this.

Hope is lower? Maybe I don't have much hope.

Perspective is listed as being able to give wise council to others. I don't know if I've ever done that. 

Social intelligence is also low. I don't think I'm aware of other's feelings. Or if I even care. 

I know why Forgiveness is low. I don't forgive myself and I've been on a revenge reading bender lately.

Appreciation for beauty is low and that one seems like a waste of time.

I don't think I'm grateful enough for the things I have because it feels like it's given to me not earned.

Perseverence is definitely low. I have a ton of books and games I haven't finished yet. 

Self regulaiton is first one the bottom list. I'm not always disciplined. I don't do the things I need to do to get better at writing or finish things. 

Zest is also low. Especially today with the weather and my medicine. 

Leadership? When I have ever lead someone? I think I'm always in the back.

Prudence is the final one. I don't think I take unnecessay risks but I don't think I make the right choices. And I'm afraid that I'll do something stupid that will get me fired or in trouble. 

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