TPA 91 Doing a little better

Two things happened, my friend came over and my psychiatrist increased my anti-depressant medication. It's a nice lift after being alone for so long and the drugs should help me out a little more until the weather changes. My friend got into Kingdom Come: Deliverance. I'm really happy I got him into the game. It's a boon for a history buff like me but he's in it for the swords and wenches. My mom also sent me some DBT exercises. The problem were having is finding someone who can meet with me on a weekly basis. Some of these programs want you to move into their building for observation. I can't afford to do that with my job. I'd have hoped that these companies would make arrangements for people like me who can't do therapy that often. It doesn't matter, I can do some of it on my own with the programs I've received. I guess I should say happy new year but I don't feel like it. I'm still recovering mentally from this...issue I'm having. I don't know if it's fear or anxiety or stage fright. It's the new year and I'm on a bad foot. If I'm strong in the Lord, I need my mind and I feel like I don't have it. Instead it feels like it's far from me. Where was the fun I had when I was writing the characters for my KIY story? Where was the joy go after I came up with the idea for my Cain story. I don't feel stronger, I feel weaker. I want this writing to matter so much but I'm afraid to put in the effort. I wish, I pray that God would remove this block from me. This SAD emotion that overpowers me when I want to write and find greater opportunities. God help me, I wear myself out just thinking about my worries. What Psalm covers this feeling that I'm having?

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