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This will be a quick one. Today was a bad day. I feel like there is a war inside my mind and soul. I don't know why God doesn't reach out to me to quiet the storm but it still rages. Maybe I want it to rage. I woke up with a neck ache on one side from sleeping wrong and had a sinus ache on the other side. Not a fun way to start my day. My coworker told me her doctor informed her that if she wants to live to see sixty, she has to cut down on the drinking. I never took her for a drinker. She told me she was into it since she was twenty. She's slightly disabled which means the bottle has or had a tight grip on her. I know she was called a retard in school, she's not dumb, just a bit different. That bottle will be hard to shake off. She has the beginnings of Liver Disease. I'm worried for her. As for me, my internal war kept me up all night yesterday. I'm hoping to get some sleep tonight. Therapy with my therapist didn't go as well as I hoped. He didn't have the answers. Doesn't seem like anybody has the answers. If it's not pills or therapy, what is it that's been keeping me down for the past year? And I have no reason to be so miserable, and yet, I am. I am a sad sack for no good, discernable, reason. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I'm getting a new tooth put in with my insurance. 

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