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I don't know what happened to me yesterday. The group seems to be warming up to me. One of them even played along with one of my jokes. So why was I so tired. I woke up today, ate breakfast, and went back to sleep, until 1:44. Almost fifteen mintues from my work time. What happened to me? I don't think I should go back to those DnD sessions or at least cut down on them. These long sessions have an effect on my head and my back. I went in thinking we were only going to do two hours but we ended up doing three. Three hours? What did I walk into? I don't know how to tell people that I'm done with them and that I need to be by myself for a few hours. I need to recharge on my lonliness so that I can be social. I'm always hoping that my job will cut into the game nights giving me an excuse to avoid but it rarely happens. I don't understand why I don't like it so much. People make their way in life by knowing someone. At least, that's what I've been told. It's not what you know it's who knows you. And no one really knows me. Is that what life is, getting to know people so you can step on them? I know people in low places like the song goes. The critic finally gave me a break. I suppose being social wore him out so I barely hear his voice. Maybe I can do some writing once the muse comes back and I get some inspiration going.

What else happend? I had a bad day that became better. All of a sudden I felt better, and I don't know why. I wish I could bottle the feeling I have today and sell it, I'd be a millionaire. Better than anything you've ever felt, you feel ok with the world. As if nothing bad can really happen to you and for once the critic is quiet. I could write on my story today but I won't. I need to make this a daily habbit, and I need some inspiration.

What else happened? Oh, I finished King's The Shining. It's a bit differnt from the famous, or infamous movie. Jack's the only one who dies when the hotel possess him and makes him smash his face in with a mallet. The hotel forgets about the boiler which destroys the hotel. Everything's wrapped up in a neat little package except for Jack's death. In fact, the ending almost feel comical. The thing possessing Jack yells in triumph after making it to the boiler and switching off the valve thinking that it's prevented disaster. At least until the boiler explodes. It's not the best ending to a villain's arc from King that I've seen before but it does end on a nice period. There's also the fact that the possessed Jack seems easily distracted by Halloway's entrance into the hotel. He's stopped from bashing his wife's head in when he senses the man's approach. Like the movie, he abushes Halloway with the mallet, not the axe, and leaves him to find his son after beating the man. Why not finish him off? I remember reading in the King wiki about the misoganistic under tone in Jack's lines near the end of the book where he sympathizes with his drunken father's attack on his mom. Jack starts to believe that his mom had it coming for being disrespectful, and this misogany carries over to how he treats his wife, Wendy. I saw some of that but not as poingnent as the wiki made it out to be. Instead, I saw a man who was trying to hold it together while under a lot of pressure and in desperate need of some booze. It's a character flaw I might almost try to defend, not because I believe women are less than men but because I feel bad for Jack who's wife, Wendy, will just never let go of the fact that he accidentally broke his son's arm while drunk. It's like there's no forgiveness between the two of them despite all the work Jack is putting into to stay on the wagon. It's ovvious that Jack loves Wendy and Danny fiercely but has struggles with anger and liquor. It's pityable how broken he is from his father to the burden he carries from his wife. Is that the message? Are we the inheriters of the sins of our parents?

Moving on, there is one thing I really have to commend King for and that's what the hotel wants with Danny.  King wisely leaves many aspects to the reader's imagination because anything that is in your vague mind is much worse than anything he can put on paper. You might remember the scene where Jack talks to the ghost of the last caretaker who talks about how the had to "correct" his wife and girls. The same thing happens in King's version but there's no scene of twins asking for Danny to join them forever. Instead, the scene plays out in a playground where a dead hand reaches for Danny's leg as if inviting him to stay forever. There's no gusher of blood spilling from the elevator (although King does play up the importance of the thing in his own book) and there's certainly not a dog going down on another guy in one of the hotel rooms, like in the movie. Instead, the dog man follows Danny around threating to bite off his nuts if he gets too close. Danny's friend "Tony" plays a bigger role in the book with him guiding Danny through the troubles at the Overlook. I can see why King was so keen on making his own version of the film. It feels like Kubric ignored the themes in King's story and decided to make his own version. I don't know why that bothered him so much because many of the other movies based off his works were also liberal with the material.