The Blog In Yellow

Ok, lets finish up from yesterday. My dad showed me something interesting yesterday. There's a printout of Jesus smiling and holding out his hand towards the viewer. Dad said that he had that hung up because of a lesson he learned from a coworker from India. The friend, his name is Vinky, said that he gave a statue to a guy who said he always had bad luck. He was to smile at the statue as he left for the day and that would give him a blessing. This is based off of the religion in the region that Vinky is from. So my dad did the same but with a Christain twist. He looks at the picture and says something like "You still love me despite who I am?" I know my dad makes mistakes and he's a glass half empty type of guy but it seems odd to me that such a great man (at least to me) would need something like that. I guess we all need confidence boosters. I see my folks in such a great light that it's easy to forget that they are human. I guess this is one of those things wh...

I'm not feeling well again today. I think I shouldn't have ate all that food before bed. If I was younger, I would have bounced from that. Today, I'm feeling slow. I went to my psychiatrist today and we had a long talk. I told her how some days I don't feel worthy of love. She's upped my dossage and my dad said something interesting. He talked about how we're trying, together, to get me to a better place. He said that this is a team effort, always has been. We talked about other things like my trauma from highschool. I told her that I started taking my anti depressant pills when it became clear that everyone else was maturing but me. It was like they could accept my strangeness when I was younger but now that we were young adults that I wasn't allowed to be John anymore. I found something else interesting too, this requires a bit of a story. So I found out that one of my favorite developers released a game about Junji Ito, one of the greatest horror manga ar...