Update on Self

Today is my last day off. I'll be going to work tomorrow and I don't know how to feel. I tried to sleep it off, I am a sleepy boy, but that didn't work. I haven't tried to exercise out the anxiety yet, maybe I'll try that next. I feel these jitters under the floorboard that is my soul and they're ready to burst out. I have a lot I want to do but I don't feel motivated to do them, I'd feel better if I do something more satisfying. A quick burst of accomplishment. Honestly, I feel like Calvin on a Sunday. He loves Saturdays but he can't enjoy Sundays because that means it's back to school the next day. I finally understand that feeling. What should I do?
I want the day to end so I can have some purpose tomorrow. At least there I'm worth something. I don't know how King does this every day. Maybe I'm not cut out to be a writer. 
I tried calling my parents, they're busy right now I guess. So what should I do? I need motivation to get things done. I need something to motivate me, something under my seat to get me up and going. I don't even want to play video games right now. I'm going for a walk, I'll try that.

Well I think that helped. What didn't help was getting lost on the way back home. It certainly got my brain going so I guess that helped. Honestly, now I want pizza. I think I'll order one or do something like that. I think I'll read too. That might help me out some more. But honestly, I don't think today is a good writing day.





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