TPA 89

Several things happened yesterday. I got to meet another James who seems like a nice guy. He's the second James at the place that I work at. During my break on the bench outside we talked for a while about hopes and dreams and stuff like that. He want's to go back to school and earn more money as a sports massuse. We talked about other things like video games and how he's waiting for the next move from God. I'm waiting for the same thing. Now that I have disability I wonder what's next for me. After that, I announced to the nurses and aids that it was time for dinner. They all celebrated at my arrival which is a sign of a bad day. If I'm the "first good news" they hear then it must have been a tough time for them.

Last night I dreamed I was at a huge school with three floors. I drove over there to visit a local school just for the heck of it and because I had an urge to visit a school. I knew that it could be illegal to walk into any school but I thought I looked young enough to pass as a student. The school was detailed. On the top floor was five out door pools in this cut out shape that I think was a flower. The kids were all outside having fum while I was looking for a way out. I knew that they would catch on to me. In my dream, I decided to take a nap in an unused room thinking that no one would find me. This was after I ate a bunch of chips and had a sugar crash. I woke up and it was the middle of the day. I needed to get out. I passed through a large gym that also served as the praise and worship center, those always appear in my dreams about schools. I went to a ball pit where there was this plastic letters that had the colored balls in them that spelled out "welcome." There was this moment where I got to the offices and someone was either bleeding, dying, or both. I guess there was a dark secret at the school. I followed a teacher out of the building who realized that I wasn't a student. It was fun to go back to school but now I had to get out of here before they called the police. Strange but fun dream.


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